My life.

I'm sorry, I've fallen behind again. Mostly because I've been using my tumblr as a creative outlet. hence the name.... tocreate.tumblr.com go check it out. I like it. So I've been MURDERING my fingers on the guitar lately. I'm hoping to do music outlet when I get back to school. Working on some original material. It's hard to find time that I feel like playing because I usually like to play at night or midafternoon, but thats right after I get home or right before I head for work. Its a rough schedule, but I am trying to fit in some creative time. I started working with blues grass chords. They are delicious to the ears.
This weekend our house is going on the market so mom, dad and I are taking off to some unknown destination. Should be an interesting weekend. Maybe I'll take my guitar and practice on the beach. I don't think I could take 2 whole days without playing it. My finger tips are all rough and crusty, but I think they might just be my prized possession.
Speaking of prized possession I could get a new coat on Friday! ITS BEAUTIFUL! es purple. I am so pumped for it. I think I'm going to sleep in it. Well....I'm out of random topics. Goodbye.

Soundtrack via itunes shuffle.

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Would the Soundtrack be?
How to do it:
1. Open your music library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc).
2. Put it on Shuffle.
3. Press Play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Be honest.
OPENING CREDITS
If it was up to me, Jet Lag Gemini
WAKING UP
Purgatory, Jeremy Larson
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL
Wolf Song, Patrick Wolf
FALLING IN LOVE
Istanbul (Not Constantinople) They Might Be Giants
FIGHT SONG
The Archers Bows have Broken, Brand New
BREAKING UP
Space Game, MC Lars
PROM
Okay I belive you but my Tommy Gun don't, Brand new
LIFE IS GOOD
Me Vs Madonna Vs Elvis, Brand New
DRIVING
Dark Come Soon, Tegan and Sara
MENTAL BREAKDOWN
She is Beautiful, Andrew W.K.
FLASHBACKE
Breakdown, Forever the Sickest Kid
GETTING BACK TOGETHER
In Memoriam, Everybody Else (MOST EPIC!!!!!)
WEDDING
London, Patrick Wolf
FINAL BATTLE
Benson Hedge, Fun. (Kind of an ultimate battle feel, kind of Highlander ish begining)
DEATH SCENE
Gone Forever, Three Days Grace (......)
FUNERAL SONG
Last Call at the Dolly, These Green Eyes.
END CREDITS
The Longest Hour of my life, Everybody Else

Wifebeaters should be outlawed around me.

It's official. I am going to drive myself insane by the end of my lifetime. Sometimes my head and my heart react SO differently. Like that guy at work I was telling you about yesterday? well today I was all goofy and crazy. He said I had the craziest mood swings he had ever seen. He apparently knew I was mad at him. I told him I had had a bad day and that him having a sass attack at me had just made me errupt. He said "Whatever". Dork-a-saur.
Anyways what I really wanted to say in this post is that there is a reason I stopped being friends with boys.
Rule #1 they are gross, either mentally or physically.
Rule #2 if they have somehow avoided #1 and they make me laugh I find myself liking them.
Enter awkwardness.
Thats right folks, I have faulty wiring. Sure it's usually never more than a little attraction here or there, but sometimes it ends terribly. The one I've got on my mind really isn't that big of a deal...except it's been awhile since I've had guy friends.
Thats a pet peeve I have at BYUI all the guys are looking for wives not friends. Kinda stupid if you ask me. Whatever. So yeah.


goodnight.
p.s. you're not supposed to understand that title.

A Summer to Remember

Guess what! I am going to post before work so you won't here any of my whining of how tired I am or how much people bugged me at work today! YAY! So I was looking at these pictures this girl took...ok I don't know her and...ok its weird but nonetheless I was just looking at her pictures and seeing what an amazing time she had on tour with The Scene Aesthetic. Now granted I am in love with Eric from TSA, I still wished I could have been a part of that summer. I miss having adventures. A long long time ago, 2007, I had one of the greatest adventures of my life. I spent 7 weeks with utter strangers and made some of the most important decisions I've yet to make. Now that I've had time to reminisce about that and to think back on it, I miss adventuring. I haven't really had an adventure since then. Sure little day adventures and I spent 3 weeks in Utah which was fun, but what I'm really looking for is a BIG adventure. A road trip, a vacation, something big, with PEOPLE. I feel so cut off from the world down here in lonely old California. I used to be able to just walk over to the next building and hang out with friends. Now I have coordinate schedules and that happens rarely! so here I am, lonely as a cloud, and there is pretty much nothing I can do about it. Next weekend I start my second job and I'll only have church on Sundays to spend time with other people. If this is what being an adult is going to be like NO THANK YOU! I need something to look forward to, something to push me, something worth doing. Right now I work on my crafts, I play my guitar, I talk to people on facebook, thats it! Thats my "fun". And I know I should be grateful for those releases and I am, I just want more. I want a road trip. Thats what I want. I want a summer to remember. To tell you the truth I kind of dropped the ball this summer up at school. It wasn't until the end of it all that I realized how much I was missing. Thats why I need Melissa, she gets me up and out. So......road trip anyone?

Sass attack.

I would just like to tell everyone....I like to rant....in my head usually. If I am truly mad about something I rarely say it outloud, but TRUST ME there is a HUGE rant in my head. Today at work someone...no names.....was pissing me off. I was silent for 3 hours while I was doing dishes. That someone then asked whats wrong. "Just tired"..."happens to everybody" what a dill weed. UGH! Sometimes I just want to throttle him sometimes. Don't worry, it's not my boss, it's a manager who is usually super chill but can be a TOTAL jerk face. yes, jerk face. So I would really like him to not be there tomorrow night. So sleepy. Who wants to party? I DO! Looking forward to a weekend asleep.
PEACE

I like being clean. Showers are mandatory for my life.

I am so so so so sorry that I've been slacking on the whole bliggity bloggity thing. I am just so busy! I work 5 days a week at Kona and guess what! I switched to nights there next week so I can also work at Beverly's during the day! HUZZAH! Moneys moneys. But sadly this means pretty much everything else in my life will be slacked in. Such as, bliggity bloggiting. Perhaps I will make it a Saturday morning ritual. We shall see. And It's especially sad because I have all these little rants and things that I want to get out of my head, but never seem to get out onto the keyboard. I love the sound of the keyboard as my thoughts flow into cyberspace, especially being accompanied by Elvis Costello's Juliet Letters, which might simply be one of my favoritest albums of all time. Well on to todays topic.

I have this friend, we will call her D, D has always been a little bit off. I knew that I was different from other people and tried to respect their position on what normal is and what isn't, but D....sometimes I don't think she really understands what society is. Well D and I got along.....decently. We were best friends for awhile, but the kind of best friends that you kind of didn't want to hang out with and when you did hang out with them they just embarassed you in front of all your other friends. This was high school so it was kind of a big deal. I started only hanging out with her at her house so then we didn't have to be seen in public together. I know I sound like a terrible friend, but if you had ANY idea of how hard it was not to just smack her you would understand. But don't get me wrong! D and I were friends, there were parts of her that I loved. She knew me inside and out. She could make me laugh so hard. There was just a big part of her that just drove me up a freaking wall. Well we had a bit of a falling out and when we graduated from high school I figured I would never see her again.I thought she would disappear into the sunset and she would be a funny story to tell my grandkids. Well we have a mutual friend who knew how we both felt about the situation, we'll call her L. L was a bit of a mixture of me and D. She knew how we both felt about the situation, but she was a little more me so she hoped D would mellow out with age. L would let me know if she heard anything from D and she'd let D know what I was up to. Well D disappeared for about 6 months....not really a big suprise to me, the suprise was that she came back. Now that she is back and living with her parents they have her come to church with them, which is where I ran into her. So that escalated to us hanging out for a day over by the mall. I would not advise that. I remember why I swore off public places. But we made plans to hang out at her house last night. She told me all sorts of stories from her traveling, as if she almost pityed me. I kept wanting to tell her how much I would hate that life. Sure I would love to have a bunch of adventure stories and have seen so many places, but I would not have been happy to do it the way she did it. We were just sitting there, me with my guitar, her with her ukelele, and these lyrics popped into my head. "and you'd love me to fly free with you byt my feet are tied to this anchor and I don't feel like cutting the rope. Because I love the solid ground and I'd rather not fly. don't beg me to join you in the sky because I'd have to gently decline. I'm sure you'll say I'm just ignoring my dreams but I've always wanted to ahve something solid under my feet" So sure some people would love to travel and be free and ignore the world and just exist in the moment, but me, personally, I enjoy stability. I have always been searching for a rock in this sea of life and I'm not about to let a meandering buoy call me out into the waves. So yeah. Thats my thoughts for the day.

Music that changed my life.

You glance up from your table and your eyes meet across the room and you're not quite sure how or why but this spark is ignited. And you listen to them for hours and think about what they said as you fall asleep and you wonder if anyone could be more wonderful! And they teach you about life and they show you things you never thought you would see and you begin to experience something that is so much more than what you thought love was. And you end up buying all their cds and wearing their t-shirts and you just can't seem to get your mind off them. But as time rolls on something new comes along, that you don't love like you loved that other one, but it catches your eye and you pursue it and time rolls on and on, but you still look back at that golden summer. That year when everything revolved around you and that relationship. When music was new and exciting and you found that one band that meant the world to you.

....Ok so if you didn't understand that I'm talking about THAT band. You know? the band that you stumbled on before you SUPER got into music and they changed everything you thought? The band that when people ask you what your favorite band is you always have in the top 3, or you feel guilty if you don't say them. That band is your first love. The band that made you love music for specific reasons.
Who is that band for me? Brand New. I remember SPECIFICALLY! the first time I heard them. Sitting on the floor cutting pictures out of magazines and watchin MTV or VH1 or something and there he was Jesse Lacey in their video of "The Quiet Things no one ever knows". I remember grabbing the remote and watching the same video about 15-20 times. Just over and over. The song was playing through my head all night. It was if Jesse had reached out of the t.v. and zapped me with his finger and said "Hello, you will love us till the day you die. Now, follow us to your grave" and you want to know what? I would've said OKAY! I had no idea what that song meant (some days I still don't) and I had no idea that their songs and lyrics would end up changing the way I viewed the world, but they came into my life right at that moment when I needed them most. I had no idea but I was looking down the tunnel to some of the worst days of my life and Brand New was there to help me. Could you imagine if some other video had played? snoop dogg or Nick Carter? Who would I be? So much of who I am has come from the experiences Brand New has given me and the outlook on life they have influenced me into.
So if anyone reads this and has a band that changed their life let me know. Sometimes I think I'm alone in this, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. I'm pretty sure Something Corporate was that for Kristie.

Dishes today. I hate them.

Hello. I am so sleepy! Work has been.....interesting. I am actually just exhausted and I thought I should update you all on my life. Just working. mer. es no bueno.

Well..........peace folks.

Birds in the night sky

So work is going alright....mer. work. My sister, pretty much my only friend in Canyon Country, is moving to Utah on Monday. I'm more than a little pissed about it. Oh well.....

On another note the point of my post today is one thing I truly love. That thing is.....putting my hand out the window as I drive down the freeway. especially at night. Besides the obvious reason of that feeling is that I can almost see that hand growing feathers. As it cuts through the air it's almost as if I am a bird soaring through that unending night. Escaping everything with just a flap of a wing. I love it. Happy Tuesday. P.S.New favorite blog 1000awesomethings.com