I want to see the world in a different way.

It's been awhile since I last wrote on here. But here goes.
I want to see the world in a different way. I come from a mechanical engineer family. Always had one of those brains that didn't waste time on the superflous. I understood how things worked and by hell they were going to work that way. But then I fell in love. Fell in love with words. The way they flow. The way they don't have a linear path. The way they wander and its just the wandering that is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
And all of a sudden a world that made perfect sense didn't have to make perfect sense. Like finding out for the first time that your shoes don't need to match your outfit. It was like I'd discovered a new world. And I became so enamored, so entrusted my soul to that.
But my brain doesn't work that way. I've got a scaffolders mind. I want to be the scatterbrained artistic one but lets be honest, my brain doesn't work like that. I've got the wiring brain. The brain that follows lead after lead until I get to the destination. But I don't want to be that way anymore.
I want to stand outside in the rain with my hands wide open, eyes leaping from water drop to water drop, never focusing on just one.
I want to have a brain that is scattered.
I know some people would wish to have the logic thats trapped inside my noggin.
But honestly.
I just want to be the artist.